The Essay
The thought of me winning a writing competition was laughable, but the thought of me reading it out loud, at another school was terrifying. I was thirteen at the time, and attended V.L. Ruben Middle School. It was a small school at the edge of a small rural town. The school was a bright red brick building with two sides joined by hallways, and had four columns lining the front of the school. At the end of one hallway was my six grade teacher’s after school enrichment program class, which would help students with homework and extra credit assignments.
Some afternoons I would go to Mrs. Abram’s class and pull out my homework and begin to work, but most of the time I would just play with my friends Sandrill, Victoria, Percy, and Iris. Mrs. Abram was a light skin black woman with long black hair and thick glasses. She was a very serious teacher; you would never see her laugh or smile at all. One day Mrs. Abram told us, “For extra credit write an essay on what black history means to you.”Now, I really needed the extra credit because my grades were poor. I could not afford to miss anything extra. If there was an extra credit for leg breaking, I needed to be there. I was a poor reader and speller, with handwriting that looked like a kindergartner. We work on the essays for two days, which during those I play around every day. Percy and I would go in the hallway to crack jokes on others. Sandrilla was the smartest of the group and work on her paper every day; so did Iris and Victoria. I never took the essay seriously at all. One day I’d write a paragraph and lose it the next.
So on that Wednesday I spent all my time working on my essay that had to be turned in the next day. I couldn’t help but to see Iris still hard at work on her paper, and thought to myself, “Why is her paper so long?” Than a sentence popped into my head, “Black History is the time we take to appreciate those who have paved the way for use” and my paper started there. I pictured Dr. Martin Luther King speaking and I wanted to write it as if he would be reading. When I finished I felt proud of my paper because I actually felt passionate about the subject after I started the paper. Even though my paper was only two paragraphs long, I felt that my paper explained what it meant to me.
That Friday Mrs. Abram came running up to me, smiling from ear to ear, with her long black hair and thick glasses, crowding my face, she said, “You won the essay competition.” My mind and mouth met on the floor. I looked at her like she was on some type of crazy medication, “There must be some mistake” I replied. I didn’t remember anything about an essay competition, nor would I win any type of essay competition. At first I was excited about winning. I couldn’t stop thinking what the prize was, and the attention of all the other teachers congratulating me.
My day went from good to great, but when Mrs. Abram said that the winners would have to read their essays at another school, it went to the worst day, ever. The principal called me in her office and congratulated me and that she’d already called my mother to bring me a change of clothing. I was so nervous after hearing their plans of me representing the school. When three o’clock came I wanted to just walk off campus in the herd of students leaving, but my mom showed up right before with the clothing and she was so proud of me. I changed into my clothing said my prayers and got into my teacher’s car. We headed into the city, the school where the reading where to be held was named, Black Burn Middle School. On the way to the school all I could think was why did I win? Did they switch paper and didn’t know it? When we pulled up it was a massive building, it was a two story building with dark color bricking. It kind of creeped me out, and this Scooby Doo feeling over me. It looked like a haunted castle or school for that matter. When we entered the school, there was a long hallway lined with blue lockers. With every step my foot grew heavier. When we turned into the auditorium, it looked to be the size of a stadium. There were three sections of seats with at least one hundred seats a row down and across. The stage looked to be the same size as our school’s gym floor. When we arrived, the judges had just start calling students up, and the order was by placement of grade and place ranking. It seemed as if I was only seated for a moment when I had to head to the stage.
My nervous system went into overdrive. There were about a hundred kids there already, but most people were leaving after their kids read their essays. Once I was on the stage, I knew that there was no backing out, besides how was I going to get home? When I started to read, my vision became blurred and my mouth dried. I stumbled through the first line as if it was a forgein language. I focused my eyes on Mrs. Abram sitting in the third row, and wonder if she could read it for me. I even tried picturing her naked, but nothing happened. Then a voice of common sense came rushing into my head, and said “I wrote it, therefore I can read it.” I took my time starting up once more, and the first paragraph was finished. By the second paragraph, my nervousness had faded and it was almost over. I finished my short essay with a proud feeling in my chest and took a bow. I had not only won a competition for writing, but I also overcame a fear of reading aloud in public. I received fifty dollars and a blue 1st place ribbon.
I left with my mother; she was so proud of me. She gave me a big hug and we went out for pizza. I still to this day look back to see how far I’ve come as a student and a man. I can say that this event in my life made me a stronger person and made me believe in myself.